story of a girl

doobeeedooo

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 05:53:35 GMT

BLUDGE BLUDGE BLUDGE DRESS UPS BLUDGE BLUDGE BLUDGE

that's my day :)
like i much?
I DONT CARE =)))))

modern is tomorrow wooooooo
not.
zomg in 2 weeks it'll be over.
cannot wait
BUT I DONT WANT ECO OR 3U MATHS *STABS*

actually can't wait until english extension.
it's my favourite :)))
i LOVE IT!
ok.
i'm weird.

BYEEEE
IM ON MAGIC MUSHROOOOOOOOOOOOOMS HAAAAAAA

(i'm actually not, i was just watching bridget jones 2 hahahahahahahaha WOOOO)

zomg

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 05:54:05 GMT

looking at past papers. frick it's going to be risky. some of them are perfect.. then some of them are like o.O i really hope they don't do what they did last year and ask for a specific character. i dont know why they'd do that, what retards. but fxck.

the end.

keep breathing my angel

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 06:23:40 GMT

edit: 6:12PM
~~AoS essay~~
but it has 2 related. and goes for 1145.
is that okay?

******

and then it all comes crashing down...
and i do no work.
gosh i really suck at curve sketching.
actually i suck at:

# curve sketching
# induction
# permutations / combinations (but yay for binomial probability!)
# limits / asymptotes
# like everything else.

gosh this sucks.
hardly anything done today.
3 days left.
frick.
i think i'm going to crash,
i think i'm going to burn..
i think i'm going to become a street sweeper.

maths has really ruined my mood ><
trying to do a bit of AoS now.
still havent got any inspiration to do a creative.
and my last one sucked major camel scrotum.

will update with... updates =/

should i have one related or 2?
not sure..
currently have 2.
as of about half an hour ago ol.

anyways:

finished AoS essay.
start creative.
more maths *stabs*

cicadas are so loud >

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 08:32:29 GMT

they're so loud that you don't notice anymore
if that makes sense..

nothing much these days.
frick on a stick four days left.
a bit scary.
times just going zooom ahead.
i don't think i'm ready.
but blah i'm so boring this is all i talk about every time.
moving onnnn.
to.
nothing.

to do for the remainder of today:
finished CORE WW1 notes
maths 3u. calculus?

actually i think that's all!
then tomoro do more maths.
and something else.
blah blah blah

pointless point.
hi lindy, the only person who knows this place exists haha :)

this love isn't good unless it's me & you

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 11:08:06 GMT

economics drives me insane.
there's so much to do.

1) i dont want to move houses
castle hill is the bomb and anywhere else just isn't good enough. i don't want to live in the city with no parks & no friends & not being able to pop over to anyone's house and just hang out. roar.

2) i went to school today and it was so different
maybe because i went when there were no people o.O but it was weird walking up carver, it's just different and i hate it and i want to go back =((((

3) so over the he said she said ~~drama~~
i'm still really sorry. hope things are better. hope things can get better. sorry out mindless banter wreecked (how do you spell it) such havoc.
i wanna be a kid forever.

4) i want to sleep for more than 7 hours.
just once. sleep before 11, and get up after 7, and just sleep or lie in bed and not have to worry about anything.

5) i was laughing when i said it, but i'm actually freaking scared
i don't understand why i can't just show sadness or scared-ness or anything. the car/leb/following me around thing scared the crap out of me, but i made it sound so funny. i don't know why it's affecting me so much but now when i'm walking i freak out whenever i hear a car driving up behind me.

6) sometimes i get so overwhelmed by it all
i don't know what to do. i just sit there and have no idea that to think or do. the next three weeks may well be the hardest ever. can't believe it's finally here. scared shxtless.

7) i wish i could get sucked into a song
and just be the words they sing. any song. i just randomly decided to put that there because i just want to be anywhere but here.

argh fxck i dont like this.
what an emo post.
nothing much to say.
just that i'm sorry.
and i did 2 3u maths papers today.
and a bit of economics ><
and watched a lot of pride & prejudice <3

i like the new mr darcy. he's a bit spunky.
not even. there's just something about him.
he's like the quiet type that never says anything then one day will come out and say "i love you, most ardently" in the pouring rain and you just wanna go *swoon*
dude. it's just a movie.

i wish i could get sucked in a movie too.
that's it.
tomorrow's another day and then the next and then the next.
then it will begin.
then in a few days it'll all be over.

it's so close and i still can't see it happening.
i can't imagine walking into the exam room.
i can't imaging formal or schoolies.
is it really going to happen?
i know i talk about this a lot. but the fact that it's all less than a week away and i still don't believe it's going to happen.

i'm half expecting someone's going to pinch me and i'm going to wake up and they're going to go HAAA! FOOLED YOU!

frick.

manda & maths sitting in a tree =)))))))

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 02:50:39 GMT

my dad was a tool and decided to turn the wireless of so i wouldnt secretly go in the net late at night. dangit lol.

just did four hours of maths.
it's so strange once you get the hang of it i kind of
*gasps*
enjoy studying?
it give you this awesome sense of accomplishment when you've done something.
going to aim for 10hours today.
almost halfway!
6 more hours & i'm awake for another 10.
soooo do-able i believe in you amanda!
lol studying is kind of like.. my friend =/
*hides behind nerdiness*
i think this happy mood means i'm gonna crash & scream in a few hours.
not looking forward to that.
oh well for now, studying is my friend.
lunchtime byeeee!

WISH ME LUCK!

yesterday:

yay 8 hours study done today!
was supposed to do 13 -_____-"
but that's like unpossible ><
so kinda happy.
i did the same as david lee

*flexes biceps*

yerr baby :)

still havent started modern, but i have dennett
so even though we dont do that much work,
he has this strange power how he talks and we listen & we learn.
it's like magic =]

today in between my ~~hectic~~ studying we went to castle mall to buy a toilet brush o.O
we went to the warehouse where i swear a homeless person could buy the whole shop.
how do they make profits i wonder?
anyways my mum wanted to buy a hat..
so then i asked the dude,
and then i was like woah.

i knew that guy in kindy.
his name is ben trenko and he goes to castle hill high
and he's probably going to bash me if he googles his name and finds out some random is talking about him.
rofl then we went down the escalators to franklins, and we bumped into my year3 teacher, who is married to my year 6 assistant principal rofl.
i seriously see my year3 teacher everywhere.
it's kind of scary once we saw them 3 days in a row at completely random places..
like first when everyone was voting for the state election,
then the next day at woolies,
then the next day just strolling around.

it's like fate or something.
i didnt even like her much =/

ive been craving those danish cookies.
the ones you dunk in your coffee and it's just yummm.
ive been looking everywhere for them, last time we bought them at aldi but they werent there =(
so then we bought some more expensive ones.
they're like yumm and vanilla cream inside and zomg they looked like heaven.
and then because aldi doesnt let you have plastic bags, so we got a box, and i was trying to open the car door while holding the box, and the cookies fell out..
onto the floor :(
i was sooooo sad and my mum went tsktsk we went from castle mall to castle towers to aldi to look for those.

apart from that my day has been study study.
it was pretty good, time goes by really fast.
but it sucks because there's not much time left.
yesterday i had a bit of a panic attack.
sometimes it just gets too much and it's a bit overwhelming,
it's always hard to write about the deep stuff when it's already passed.
because now i just feel like a tool.
i was supposed to do a bit of modern from 9-11, but it's already 10:37 and havent started..

roar i think im finally starting to get the hang of this whole studying thing.
lol.
with less than 1 month until the end.
nice work (Y)

k bye! :)

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 02:50:46 GMT

towers for breakfast.
no i did not eat towers for breakfast.
because that would be too much even for me.
and plus, bricks & tiles don't do much for me.
har har i'm so funny.

hey wow, a butterfly just flew onto my window.
how pretty.
there's so many moths these days.
how gross.
they're so scary i keep thinking they're gonna grow to human-size and attack me >=(
last night there were 2 moths in my room, attracted to me possible the light.
it was scary.

so, blood test for mum.
then towers & $20 gift voucher from cotton on for her.
& a card that i thought was funny ^^

"Happy Birthday from your well-adjusted, polite, charming, good-looking...
>turns page<
modest friend"

mum also found a personalised 'amanda' birthday card.
but she couldnt be bothered paying for it.
so she asked me to.
i payed for my own birthday card.
what's more... my birthday is may next year =/
go figure...

also got $5 thongs yay :)
they're pretty & silver and did i mention only $5?
also found sunnies for $12.95 but buying them when i'm not with my mum or she'll complain.
i have no nose so all sunglasses just sit on my cheeks -____-"

still doing maths.
it's a pain.
projectile motion is like o.O, or maybe a -_________-", definately a ><

probably more eco later.
it takes sooooooooo long to doooo ><
and then modern.
which is also a bit ><

new musics :)
more red jumpsuit.
they're a bit love.
and even though they call themelves ~~screamo~~
i dont think they are :)
also a bit of randoms. martine mccutcheon, tara maclean
finally starting to like coldplay
& rooney are a bit of fun :)
then just chuck in some mainstream pink

mp3 is broken :(
i'm still hoping it will just magically turn on again...
will call creative after hsc & hopefully they'll uphold the warranty thingo.
so in the meantime stolen mum's mp3,
except it's hard coming up with an excuse as to why, seeing as she doesnt know mine is dead.
6tth broken mp3 ><

oh no i just close my window and now the butterfly is trapped between it and the fly screen thingo of my window.

that's my saturday up until 12:50pm.

the end

go away give me a chance to miss you

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 02:39:11 GMT

okay let's go second post ever.
ive decided this place will be used to mindless blogging about nothing in particular.
so sorry if this is a tad boring.
trying ever so desperately to finish topic 3 economic but it's taking foreverrrr and i dont like it ><
my grandparents left today.
goodbyes are strange.
tried not to think about the fact that i wont be seeing them for like.. a long time.
33 days & it's over.
frick on a stick bro that's like soon.

roar.

hi

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 10:47:12 GMT

livejournal is. different.

so many ads and links and a little impersonal =/

roar.

just devirginising my blog :)

so hi.